Dancing in the rain

In Christ alone my hope is found, He is my light, my strength, my song; this Cornerstone, this solid Ground, firm through the fiercest drought and storm. What heights of love, what depths of peace, when fears are stilled, when strivings cease! My Comforter, my All in All, here in the love of Christ I stand.

About

Hi, I am Dawn, and I was diagnosed with uterine cancer in August 2013. I was blindsided. I had gone in for a hysterectomy and the pathology report was a huge shock. Initially, I would say I got off “easy.” They had gotten the cancer out before I had known it was there, the staging surgery could find no trace of the cancer spreading, and observation was the protocol over chemo. Unfortunately, I experienced a recurrence in July, 2014, but, again, I was so very blessed. The tumor was on my lung, but it was operable. My oncologist whisked me off to the thoracic surgeon, who removed a third of my lung. Again, the margins came back negative and I am again cancer free; however, this time we are doing chemo.

From day one, God told me that I am his miracle girl, and he has backed that up with action. With as high of a grade as my original tumor was, there wasn’t a pathologist around who would have expected to find it hadn’t already spread. My scan was not originally scheduled until the end of August, but some fluke symptoms that ended up being nothing prompted the oncologist to bring me in early. My surgeon was unaware of this, and in his post-surgery report shared that “another month, your prognosis would have been very different.” Because of the location and aggressive growth, he was certain that I certainly would have lost the whole lung, and it probably would have straddled over to the other lung. I could share many other instances where God has gone ahead…perhaps they will appear in my blog from time to time… However, with chemo came a roadblock in my faith. Cancer became real. There was also the comment from my oncologist that my cancer’s biology has shown itself to be recurrent. Where does that leave me in His promise that I am his miracle girl? How many miracles do I get? In the end, in the deepest part of my heart, I know that He is still the source of my hope, I just need to be more vigilant in seeing the rays through  the storm clouds.

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