I have been rather amused by my chia like hair style…especially fresh out of the shower. Just cracks me up. Then, God began to speak something very intimate into my heart about the symbolism of my chia hair. It started out with the wonder of its rebelliousness…how it continued to shoot up in spite of the chemo. Then God began to unpack that. It wasn’t just rebelliousness, but strength. Strength rising up out of me. Strength in the face of adversity. Strength that was symbolic of being an overcomer. And it was all representative of something he had planted in my spirit when he created me.
I endured a lot of rejection in my childhood, but God didn’t allow me to give up. Honestly, I could have easily grown up to be a drug addict or in jail. But looking back, I see the fight and hope he planted deep inside. Others may not have believed in me, but somehow I had this suspicion that they were wrong. I believed there was something better on the horizon.
While others spoke things that tore down or simply withheld, my Jesus whispered, “no child could ever dance the way you do.” He tells me he is proud of me. He sees in me something that I don’t think any human has.
It reminds me of when you walk down the sidewalk and see a flower growing up out of a crack. How does that happen in the face of such adversity? For me, it is my Jesus. It is a special gift he has given me. With his great love and mercy, I have spent a lifetime defying the odds. My battle with cancer is no different. As I question, “could a garden come up from this ground?” he responds with strong, rebellious hair defying the odds and fighting its way to the surface.
Psalm 18:32 says that It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure, and experience tells me this is so.
For entertainment purposes I have included a pic of my chia hair. I was trying to get a pic for a friend and couldn’t really get it to show up so I decided to use my lamp to add some lighting… I fell into a fit of giggles to discover I was a chia angel!!